My Progress

Monday, March 22, 2010

Need motivation...

o have been feeling a bit stuck in this rut, still can't get on the scale but I did try on some clothes. First of all different parts of me are smaller and some are a bit bigger, not ok with that but it comes with the working out. My legs are very firm and toned but also a bit bigger so all my spring/summer stuff from last year still fit even though I was hoping they would be too big, but I still plan to work on that. However I am trimming my mid-section, back and arms, I am liking the results.
I have a dress that is special to me. My mom bought it for me when I was getting ready for my wedding, so I was 19 and in the best shape ever. I wore it the first few months of my marriage but then it quickly became too small and then one day it was not even an option, couldn't get any part of me into it. I leant it to my friend Emily in California for a special date with her husband and she looked awesome in it and I was super jealous cause I love that dress and realized it would never fit again. She eventually mailed it back to me after we became separated in the military world. I have had it sitting around since then, tried it on when I started losing weight and it just has never fit, has a zipper that goes up the side and kept getting to the point I could get in it but not zipped up, guess what? IT ZIPPED!!!! I was so happy!
Here is the plan though. I am currently working hard on getting back on my thyroid meds so I can get my metabolism back on track. Gonna get going harder with the Alli, been skipping it too much and the eating out thing is over and done with, special occasions only! Had Taco bell tonight but they have a great "fresco" menu option, get a taco with lower calories, love it! I will get be going and getting me a nice pair of size 8 jeans here soon, that is still the goal. And I will get down to 127 one day, happy where I am but I want to be "normal" for once in my adult life, instead of "over-weight" thankfully I am no longer "obese" or scarily "morbidly obese"!
Give me till the end of April and I may get the courage to get on the scale, dang that thing!

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I love it. You look beautiful. :)

Unknown said...

You know what I love? You LOOK happy at last !!! Howard and I have always thought you looked either angry or unhappy and now you are a new happy Mom, good for you !! Hang in there we are cheering you on !!!

Emily said...

You look AMAZING!!!! Love you and the dress. Congrats...you deserve all the best. And you are not fat!!! I love you sooo much. I wish I could be there for you. I'll come visit you as soon as I can :)