Those of you keeping up with my life here in the blog world know that I have come a very long way. I still have that scale that I got for Christmas in the box unopened in my basement, still scares me to death. I love the way I feel just scared of that number, not sure why. I think it is because I have a number in my mind and if it is higher than I will be upset, but I guess that I would be motivated too. May have to break down and step on that scale, I will let you know if I do.
I go to the gym 5-6 times a week and am dripping sweat every time. I love how I feel and I am so much stronger and I did it, I lost it and kept it off. I changed my life. Still want my surgery, one day it will happen, it isn't an option just a goal.
The reason I titled this I feel pretty is because whenever I get all dressed up and fixed up I like to take a picture, I never felt like that before, hated having my picture taken but now I love myself and am happy with how I look, needless to say I have too many pictures of myself, getting a bit silly. I said that I want to feel prettier because I want to lose those last pesky pounds that are still hanging on and I REALLY want a new dress, something that makes me feel beautiful and small and happy.
Shopping is a totally new thing to me, hated it before. Used to be a reminder that I was huge and didn't fit into anything that I wanted but going from a size 18 to a size 8-10 has made shopping a thing I love and wish I could blow money on things that finally fit me. I don't but I really want that dress, I even kind of have a picture of it in my head, just haven't found it. Also, really don't have anywhere to wear it, don't get to dress up much anymore, or at all. The last time was my birthday and our vegas trip, both last summer.
Speaking of birthdays can't believe I am gonna be 29, seems crazy to me, I don't fear it or hate it but it just seems to put me into a different stage of life, still 20s but not really. They say 40 is the new 20, so if 30 the new 15, cause I don't want to go back to that stage in my life at all! I know I am better at this age than I have ever been and will only get better from here! Ok I think I have blogged enough for one night, bless you to those who still read. Keep up the prayers and well wishes and I will let you know if I conquer the scale fear, aaaaaahhhhhhh!
Some of those pics, Ruby likes to join me :)
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