I got on the scale....

So I finally did it. I got down to 168! That is 50 lbs., I truly never thought I could do this, but now that I have come this far I am motivated and know that I can do anything. My size 12 pants are all very lose and I am close to getting to 10, I will be so happy and satisfied with size 8, that would get me back to the size I was in high school! I haven't been this size since my first year of marriage! I am using a lot of exclamations! But I am very happy!
I did it, I changed my life, I finally figured it out and even though I have farther to go, I know that I will get there. About 40 more pounds and I reach my goal and get to continue living a happier, healthier life. I am so excited that I am finally one of those kind of people who are in to fitness and exercise. I am going to keep it up forever, it is amazing to feel this way. I have so much energy, I get so much more done during the day and I have a great (though useless at the moment) sex drive (sorry again family). I don't miss regular soda and I haven't had a real pizza (just lean cuisine, kind) since I started this, I used to go to godfather's buffet and eat my whole days worth of calories or more. I didn't need stupid Dr. Phil's plan, or Jenny Craig or any of those, I didn't even need a gym! I just changed the way I eat and live and I am never going back. I hope this inspires others, cause if I can do it, seriously, ANYONE can do it.
My biggest downer on this whole thing is that now cause of my weight loss I have the dreaded useless hanging skin that I can't do anything about, when all is said and done I will go get a consultation for plastic surgery. I will desperately need a tummy tuck, and I don't think it is vain at all, it is necessary and what it would take to make this whole process worth while. I know with clothes on I will look great but I will still have to look in the mirror and feel disappointed. After all this hard work I want to just feel amazing not gross, and the vain side of me would like a boob lift too! OK people, keep up the comments and the support, I couldn't have done it without you!

Old Pictures Suck!

I hate seeing myself in old pictures and I can't wait to look back and see more change. I am not doing as well as I would like to, still cheating a bit, not a lot but I had a sonic burger today, but I had a luna bar for dinner to make up for it. I missed a work out or two, it is hard to keep track. When I started I did a journal of my exercise and food intake, maybe I need to do that again, probably. I am sure there is someplace online to do it. I did try on ore clothes, while cleaning out my closet and drawers, and nothing fits, I have a huge pile of clothes if anyone knows any short fat people who could use them. I know I should take them to goodwill, then I have nothing if I gain so I can't gain! I will NEVER ever go back to that. I am finally happy, healthy and unfortunately horny (sorry family), it would be much better if my hubby lived with me. I guess being fit and exercising make you frisky. I miss you Kevin!!! I work off that energy with more exercise. I am so sick of the weather going back and forth, I loved jogging the last two weekends but it is going to be cold tomorrow. I was jogging in a tank top last week and this week it is supposed to SNOW! I want to go back to Cali! Ok I will keep you all updated, I might get on the scale at the end of the month, as long as I do well the rest of the month. Ok, I promise to get on the scale, that way I have to work hard so I can see some great results, I am so hoping to be in the low 170's, maybe, I hope so. 

Great week!

I am so motivated again, so pumped up! Thank you so much to all of you who comment, call, email, etc. You have all given me such a boost. I had an awesome week. I didn't miss a work out and did above and beyond some days. I had a great jog yesterday, 3.8 miles and I did some actual running, needless to say I have very sore legs today. I am ready for another great week! I am not ready to get on the scale yet, maybe at the end of February. My size 12 jeans are already in need of a belt. 

It feels amazing to have people who haven't seen you in a while say how great you look, it really is keeping me going. What doesn't help is seeing the swim suits that are already out in stores, not ready for that yet, but hopefully when it is time to get out in the pool I will be ready and looking super hot! 

I am glad that I am getting others motivated. Seriously if I can do it, anyone can, believe me. And so far I haven't had to deprive myself, although I should keep away from a few things, especially chocolate. I did find 100 calorie pack Twinkies! And Peppermint patties are low-cal too! Ok well I have a busy week ahead, lots of working out to do, need to get some good sleep. I love you all and thank you all so much for your support and motivation.

Lots of Prayers

Praying has been such an important part of my life and God has always provided and taken care of us in so many ways but right now he is saying the ever famous "WAIT". And I am not a patient person. I have several prayers lately and I know He is not ignoring me but He is telling me to hold on, He has it under control but still it is hard for me to give up that control when I am trying so hard to stay positive and keep the good momentum I had before. 

I am really dragging on my work outs, just making excuses, and I hate when people make excuses so I kicked my own butt today for that. I have cheated too and eaten some McDonalds and Arbys, now I didn't eat near what I would have before but still need to not go there, it is just so easy to grab it with the kids instead of making a mess in the kitchen or eating another microwave low fat meal. But for the most part I am staying on track. 

Right here and now I am promising that I am back on track. God has a plan, I am giving him my worries and my weight loss and I am going to go back to being the positive, happy and SKINNIER person I am now. Thanks to so many of you who tell me that I look good and that you are proud of me, it really really helps. 

Also please pray for Kevin's grandma, she is having surgery to remove the last of the cancer from her body and we all just pray that things go well and that the cancer will be gone for good and she comes through it all feeling much better.

I still feel fat

I have so far to go people. I looked at all the pictures from Christmas and although I am smaller than previous pictures I am still the fat one in all of them. It is motivating, it makes me want to work hard. I feel good at the moment cause I just worked out for almost 2 hours. But I didn't get a work out in this weekend even though it was a gorgeous day on Saturday. I wanted to go jog so badly but we were having a family Christmas so I didn't get to.  Well I need to get some rest, Ruby is sick again so I expect to be up half the night again. Keep me in your prayers, I can't do this alone. Over Christmas I got so many compliments and it made me feel great. I have to keep going and not give up, I need to work harder.

It's a new year!

Hmmm, I wonder what my new year's resolution will be...

My resolution is that next year, for the first time in my adult life, losing weight will not be my new year's resolution. I have to tell the truth, December has been tough and I probably only worked out like 6 times. I was so sick for the first two weeks, with sick kids as well. Then all the prep for Christmas and then Kevin arriving and then all the festivities. And I also admit I ate too much but still a whole lot less than I would have in the past. And I am still off regular pop! Now things have calmed back down. We can finally get a good schedule going. I truly miss jogging though and I am so ready to get back to it, but the weather is not cooperating. I hate cold and it is going to be cold for a while. I really want to do a 5K, that is my other resolution. I am just really afraid of it cause anyone I know who has done it can actually run and I don't run and I think I would be the last one behind tons of people. 

One of my greatest Christmas gifts was my size 12 jeans! Yes size 12, my 14's are now falling down, so it looks like my bad month didn't ruin me. I was doing a dance in the fitting room cause they fit so well! I can't wait to keep going down. I am going to use some Christmas money to buy some more Alli, cause I really think it is helping. I also bought (with Christmas money) a 5-lb weight ball, more (smaller) work out clothes, 2 new dvd's, and we got the Fit TV Channel now so I have all kinds of work outs. You should see my DVR, it has like 15 workouts recorded. I can never get bored again! 

My goals:

lose more weight (duh)

size 8 by this summer!

jog a 5K

jog a 5K in under 40 minutes!

Things I want to do when I am smaller:

buy a cute swimsuit

go to Vegas

ride a mechanical bull

get pictures taken

try on my wedding dress (if I am an 8 than it will be too big!)

I wish you all a very happy and healthy new year. I hope some of you can be inspired like me and just do it, if I can anyone can.

I just can't do it!!

Ok people, I am so sick of feeling like crap! I seriously ache everywhere, I can't breathe out of my nose, my throat is killing me, my ears itch, and my head feels as if it might explode! On top of all that Ruby is sick again, which is miserable for both of us, I started watching Irelynn this week and have to get up at 6 am, so I am exhausted. Once I am finally over this cold or flu or whatever it is I can get back into a rhythm. I didn't work out yesterday, I was going to work out tonight cause Ruby went to sleep at 8:00 but I can hardly move and I can barely keep my eyes open, I am going to bed right after this, then as long as I am feeling better tomorrow I am going to exercise twice, I have to make up for it. I feel so guilty and so fat when I don't work out but I am not quitting, aren't I allowed a break when I am feeling this terrible? I hate this season, not Christmas, I love that, but my family always gets sick now. I can't seem to find a pill that makes the pain go away and I dread trying to get a dr's appt and dragging the kids out in the cold just to run to the doctor and then end up getting told there is nothing they can do for it. Hopefully my parents or in-laws can help me out this weekend and give me a few breaks from the kids. I have decided that I can't just run to walmart with the kids this time of year, it is freezing so we have to get all bundled up, into the car, out of the car, un-bundle ourselves, shop, bundle back up, run through the freezing parking lot, back into the car, into the house and un-bundle again. Way too much work. I plan on doing my shopping when I can get someone to watch them. Ok now I am going to bed, love you all and I hope no one feels as crappy as I do.