Oh Wow!

So my last post on here was in March, I think, and for some reason since then my life has become so much fuller and richer and so amazing. But that being said I let myself get really lazy, really lazy, just recently went back to the gym after months of not going (sorry mom and dad, I will make up for it). I am so out of shape and I decided that I had to get on the scale and see after tonight trying on a bunch of pairs of jeans and all of them made me feel so fat, when they are jeans that used to fall off me, grrrrrrrrrr!!! I got on the scale and really don't want to say what I got back up to but it is sad and so disappointing. I knew that I was getting bigger too just kind of ignored it cause I have been so happy lately but that is not an excuse to let myself go! The new me is BACK! I am not giving in, not going to do it. I have to get back down to 140, hopefully 130 one day but we will focus on 145 as my first goal and have to get there by Christmas, then can work the rest of my booty off in the new year. So here I am again asking for your help and support, sorry for letting it go, being happy and content is not a good reason to let myself go back. I am quitting the eating out all the time, gonna cook A LOT more, and mostly it is back to the gym as much as possible, gotta do it. So please pray for me and this journey again, I will not go back to how I was. Don't get me wrong, I am still happy with myself and feel like i look great but I did slack big time and need to get back on track. Thanks those of you who noticed (I know that you did) for not pointing it out and making me feel like crap, you knew I would figure it out. It was the pics from the lake that made me start looking cause I look so much bigger than before dang it!! Ok so here we go again, good thing this is a good time to start getting organized with life and getting on a schedule again. If anyone still reads this sorry I left for so long and I will be updating soon!