I did it!

I ran my first 5K and I feel really good about it. I didn't come in last and there were tons of people slower than me. I did it in a little over 35 minutes, which I think is great for my first time, I thought it would be 40 or more. My next one is in 2 weeks and it will have a lot more hills so I don't know if my time will improve or not. I wish I could train everyday but it is difficult cause pulling a wagon or pushing a stroller makes things difficult.
I haven't gotten on the scale in a while, I said I would at easter but I just am not ready. I hate to be disappointed. The scale has always been a source of disappointment in my life before now but it still scares me. I just keep enjoying the fact that I need smaller clothes and I feel great.
I realized the other day that I wasn't going to reach my goal, which at this current moment I don't remember, I will have to go back and look. But I am so happy with my progress and since it is now my life-style then I will just continue to lose and eventually get to the place I want. I had such a great moment the other day, it may sound totally trashy but it really made my week! I was walking into a store that is right on sante fe (payless shoes) and it is right by a red light and as I was walking it I heard a loud whistle and someone yelled "Sexy!", it could have been a very trashy guy but I didn't look or care, I just kept strutting my stuff! Well I will let you know if I ever get on the scale and I will update you on my running progress.

new goals, get back on track

Well there is so much going on in my life right now that I really can't go into just yet. But I have been stressed and feeling depressed lately and have been slacking on work outs. I got a really good long work-out at the gym on Saturday and it felt great. It really is a release, just wish I could get out running more often. I am looking forward to a few upcoming 5K's that I am doing. 

I am determined to get back on track but stressing about selling the house and getting moved is weighing me down. I just want to be moved on to the next step in my life but I do have a greater determination than before. I will be skinny, sexy and healthy and happy. Please pray for my strength and for my life. I know I will survive, it is just hard to see the sunshine through the rain. I had fun dress shopping with my mom, for the first time we could try on the same clothes and after a near laughing asthma attack in the dressing rooms, I found a great dress, my mom is easily amused. I tried on a few size 10 dresses and they would look great with a little bit more toning, or some good slimming undergarments! Well keep my family in your prayers and I will let you all know how this week goes.

Thank you!

I just needed to put a note in here to say thank you so much to everyone for all he amazing support. I promise I couldn't have done it without you. All the words of encouragement, the comments, the emails, I am so lucky to have such an awesome support system. I especially need to thank my parents and Kevin's parents. They have done so much, their encouragement and motivational gifts and help have really gotten me to this point. They have done so much. Great new running shoes, my Alli medicine, new clothes for my new smaller body, getting to use the Kolenda's gym, it is awesome, thank you mom and dad and Bob and Cindy. 

I am a little apprehensive about some upcoming runs that I want to do. I want to do the Trolley run in April and I am doing a 5K on Mother's day, yikes. I wish I had more opportunity to go running but with the girls and this up and down weather it just doesn't work. I will just keep up with my work-outs and keep getting more fit.

My next thing I need to do is go to the doctor. I haven't been since I started my wright loss and I would like to talk to them about a few things, maybe have them send me to a sports medicine place. I need to talk about the problem with my belly fat, and about my knee hurting during certain exercises and my heel hurting. I am not making excuses or anything, I am not quitting or holding back any but these are things I just want to make sure that I am not causing long term damage. I am not worried about seeing a dietitian, I think I have my diet under control but I need to talk to someone about all the rest of it. 

Thank you all again, I have the most amazing family and friends, I love you all! Keep up the support, keep up the motivation, don't let me quit! Oh yeah! My mom gave me a pair of size 10 jeans of hers that were too short, THEY FIT!!! 

I got on the scale....

So I finally did it. I got down to 168! That is 50 lbs., I truly never thought I could do this, but now that I have come this far I am motivated and know that I can do anything. My size 12 pants are all very lose and I am close to getting to 10, I will be so happy and satisfied with size 8, that would get me back to the size I was in high school! I haven't been this size since my first year of marriage! I am using a lot of exclamations! But I am very happy!
I did it, I changed my life, I finally figured it out and even though I have farther to go, I know that I will get there. About 40 more pounds and I reach my goal and get to continue living a happier, healthier life. I am so excited that I am finally one of those kind of people who are in to fitness and exercise. I am going to keep it up forever, it is amazing to feel this way. I have so much energy, I get so much more done during the day and I have a great (though useless at the moment) sex drive (sorry again family). I don't miss regular soda and I haven't had a real pizza (just lean cuisine, kind) since I started this, I used to go to godfather's buffet and eat my whole days worth of calories or more. I didn't need stupid Dr. Phil's plan, or Jenny Craig or any of those, I didn't even need a gym! I just changed the way I eat and live and I am never going back. I hope this inspires others, cause if I can do it, seriously, ANYONE can do it.
My biggest downer on this whole thing is that now cause of my weight loss I have the dreaded useless hanging skin that I can't do anything about, when all is said and done I will go get a consultation for plastic surgery. I will desperately need a tummy tuck, and I don't think it is vain at all, it is necessary and what it would take to make this whole process worth while. I know with clothes on I will look great but I will still have to look in the mirror and feel disappointed. After all this hard work I want to just feel amazing not gross, and the vain side of me would like a boob lift too! OK people, keep up the comments and the support, I couldn't have done it without you!

Old Pictures Suck!

I hate seeing myself in old pictures and I can't wait to look back and see more change. I am not doing as well as I would like to, still cheating a bit, not a lot but I had a sonic burger today, but I had a luna bar for dinner to make up for it. I missed a work out or two, it is hard to keep track. When I started I did a journal of my exercise and food intake, maybe I need to do that again, probably. I am sure there is someplace online to do it. I did try on ore clothes, while cleaning out my closet and drawers, and nothing fits, I have a huge pile of clothes if anyone knows any short fat people who could use them. I know I should take them to goodwill, then I have nothing if I gain so I can't gain! I will NEVER ever go back to that. I am finally happy, healthy and unfortunately horny (sorry family), it would be much better if my hubby lived with me. I guess being fit and exercising make you frisky. I miss you Kevin!!! I work off that energy with more exercise. I am so sick of the weather going back and forth, I loved jogging the last two weekends but it is going to be cold tomorrow. I was jogging in a tank top last week and this week it is supposed to SNOW! I want to go back to Cali! Ok I will keep you all updated, I might get on the scale at the end of the month, as long as I do well the rest of the month. Ok, I promise to get on the scale, that way I have to work hard so I can see some great results, I am so hoping to be in the low 170's, maybe, I hope so. 

Great week!

I am so motivated again, so pumped up! Thank you so much to all of you who comment, call, email, etc. You have all given me such a boost. I had an awesome week. I didn't miss a work out and did above and beyond some days. I had a great jog yesterday, 3.8 miles and I did some actual running, needless to say I have very sore legs today. I am ready for another great week! I am not ready to get on the scale yet, maybe at the end of February. My size 12 jeans are already in need of a belt. 

It feels amazing to have people who haven't seen you in a while say how great you look, it really is keeping me going. What doesn't help is seeing the swim suits that are already out in stores, not ready for that yet, but hopefully when it is time to get out in the pool I will be ready and looking super hot! 

I am glad that I am getting others motivated. Seriously if I can do it, anyone can, believe me. And so far I haven't had to deprive myself, although I should keep away from a few things, especially chocolate. I did find 100 calorie pack Twinkies! And Peppermint patties are low-cal too! Ok well I have a busy week ahead, lots of working out to do, need to get some good sleep. I love you all and thank you all so much for your support and motivation.

Lots of Prayers

Praying has been such an important part of my life and God has always provided and taken care of us in so many ways but right now he is saying the ever famous "WAIT". And I am not a patient person. I have several prayers lately and I know He is not ignoring me but He is telling me to hold on, He has it under control but still it is hard for me to give up that control when I am trying so hard to stay positive and keep the good momentum I had before. 

I am really dragging on my work outs, just making excuses, and I hate when people make excuses so I kicked my own butt today for that. I have cheated too and eaten some McDonalds and Arbys, now I didn't eat near what I would have before but still need to not go there, it is just so easy to grab it with the kids instead of making a mess in the kitchen or eating another microwave low fat meal. But for the most part I am staying on track. 

Right here and now I am promising that I am back on track. God has a plan, I am giving him my worries and my weight loss and I am going to go back to being the positive, happy and SKINNIER person I am now. Thanks to so many of you who tell me that I look good and that you are proud of me, it really really helps. 

Also please pray for Kevin's grandma, she is having surgery to remove the last of the cancer from her body and we all just pray that things go well and that the cancer will be gone for good and she comes through it all feeling much better.