Back on Track

So I have not gained any weight but I don't really think I have lost much in the past month so here I go again, back on track. I started up the Alli again (thanks to my Marcia!). I am getting in my daily workouts, making it a priority. It is going to get more and more difficult to be doing all this with all that is coming up in my life. Packing, selling everything, moving, starting a job, all that there is to do is a bit overwhelming but I have so much support and help, amazing family and awesome friends. I would not be able to do this without all the great people in my life, everyone who has been available to me for words of advice, encouragement, or just to listen and be understanding. This whole part of my life has been and continues to be more difficult than so many can even imagine but I have to keep up my new outlook. I became a confident, beautiful and strong woman in the past year and that is what is getting me through this. 

I have so many fears and worries but I have learned to give those to God cause otherwise I would be weighed down by it all. I pray for so many things that sometimes I feel like I am asking too much. God help me find the right job, help me to keep up my weight loss, help me to be a good mom even when I don't know how to make it through another day with these strong willed children, help me not to get too stressed about the house selling and all the paperwork involved with divorce, help the hurt to stop and help me to not feel so lonely and unloved. But on the other hand I need to praise God.

Thank You for amazing parents who are doing so much more for me than anyone deserves, thank You for awesome extended family who pray for me and are there to talk or help when they can, thank You for keeping me strong when I feel like breaking, thank You for friends who are there for me, mostly God thank You so much for my beautiful little strong willed girls who help me see beauty and are the reason I wake up everyday, they are worth everything that I have been through and I hope I am the best mom I can be through everything. I want them to look up to me and I know that I can't protect them from everything but I just pray they see my strength and faith and my struggle and learn to be strong women too.